Long After – New Poem (Rough First Draft)
Long after you’ve forgotten my face,
I will remember my breathlessness
that first time I saw you.
You were fumbling with your keys
in the hallway, curses soft under your breath.
You didn’t notice me when I walked past.
I moved purposefully slowly so you might.
Though I couldn’t have moved fast if I’d wanted to.
You made my knees fragile as glass.
I will remember how my heart
struck the walls of my chest like a bull whip,
how much I wanted you to look up.
Long after you have forgotten my voice,
I will remember how you made my bones flimsy
when you opened your mouth to ask for the price
of six avocadoes, while I stood behind you
in the queue trying to hide the contents of my basket.
Long after you have forgotten my body.
I will remember the morning you accepted
my friend request, and how I waited an entire
day, hands poised over the keys, thighs growing
numb waiting for a conversation that I knew
deep in my gut would never come.
I saw you vanish in the pale hours last week,
I missed you before you turned the corner,
you had already forgotten my face.